Thank you for replying.

Well, what I've actually come to think about is that in hindsight, and given her background, my ex might very well had taken the submissive role on her throughout the entire relationship. But as what I now understand is a service sub. She did everything for me, to please me. I had nothing to wish for. I didn't even get time to wish anything, bedroom or otherwise. I never asked for it or even considered the why.... That daily control was there too I think. That just happened because of how I am I guess....

So I guess I want to explore about that a bit more, and indeed figure out if something like that is possible again, and a bit 'more'....