musings

[Mishka]

Just musing over trust lately. Just the diving in and my irrational imagination. (it's not the first time...I have a paranoid, dark, morbid side to me) But it's hard to give and must be handled very gently.

It's so much more than physical attraction, wild emotions or vivid imagination. The subjection mentally cannot be carelessly handled. (And you haven't been careless at all, Sir. This is simply my stream of consciousness...such as it is at 12:30 in the morning.)

If it's time to let go, just dropping it, letting it break, that's (adjective fails me here) painful. It's not just the emotions, not just the heart. Submitting at this level, you are handling someone's mind that they put willingly in your care. Putting it down has to be slow and gentle. Like a chrystal glass. The heart will heal. It is soft and can be torn, but can mend, though you can often see the mark for a long time. The mind that let it be controlled...that trust... that's shattering. It takes longer to put the pieces back together.

As time goes by, week by week, a little more trust is handed over...more control...more vulnerability. With a worthy Dom, it can be the most freeing, relieving experience. I wonder what a Dom's feelings are like, when it's put in their care?

Perhaps my musings are far from other's wealth of knowledge and understanding, but just thinking it through...to wherever it goes.

[Rhabbi]

Just musing over trust lately. Just the diving in and my irrational imagination. (it's not the first time...I have a paranoid, dark, morbid side to me) But it's hard to give and must be handled very gently.

It's so much more than physical attraction, wild emotions or vivid imagination. The subjection mentally cannot be carelessly handled. (And you haven't been careless at all, Sir. This is simply my stream of consciousness...such as it is at 12:30 in the morning.)

If it's time to let go, just dropping it, letting it break, that's (adjective fails me here) painful. It's not just the emotions, not just the heart. Submitting at this level, you are handling someone's mind that they put willingly in your care. Putting it down has to be slow and gentle. Like a chrystal glass. The heart will heal. It is soft and can be torn, but can mend, though you can often see the mark for a long time. The mind that let it be controlled...that trust... that's shattering. It takes longer to put the pieces back together.

As time goes by, week by week, a little more trust is handed over...more control...more vulnerability. With a worthy Dom, it can be the most freeing, relieving experience. I wonder what a Dom's feelings are like, when it's put in their care?

Perhaps my musings are far from other's wealth of knowledge and understanding, but just thinking it through...to wherever it goes.

kitten,

As a Dom the most sacred trust I have is to keep you safe, and that includes from anything that I might do. I am an imperfect human and thus capable of making msjudgements and mistakes.

I want to commend you on your trust and the understanding of what it means. trust is something you must give, just as I have given mine to you. I think you have an idea of just how much you can hurt me if you ever choose to do so. In actuallity, your danger is much lees than mine. Not that I am belittling the level of trust you have placed in me, nor am I asking for more than you are ready to give.

I saaid before that having a sub is intoxiacating, and I still stand by that assessment. As a Dom the level of trust that is given me frees me to accomplish so many other things, it actually allows me to accept things that would otherwise be impossible to take because I know that I am worthy of true trust from a wonderful woman.

Day by day my love for you grows, and although it will never reach the culmination that W/we see in O/our other relationships, W/we continue to grow stronger as individuals and as a U/unit.

My kitten, I thank you.