I'm not sure what you mean by "Maybe only if you lose your impulse control." That is, if I lost control over my impulses than what?

Someone else wrote me a private message calling this little --um-- problem 'sub-frenzy' too! That makes me feel so much better that there's a name for it. I was seriously starting to wonder if there was something going seriously wrong with me. Of course saying I'm in a sub-frenzy doesn't mean there's nothing wrong with me. It's just an apparently common thing.

I'm not new to the thoughts at all. I don't think I've had a sexual thought (an effective sexual thought) that wasn't submissive in my entire life. I've been invited to play a few times in my life, but have never sought anything out actively until recently. And now it seems I'm going crazy. So I'm not new in thought. I write tons of stories and read a lot about it, but only recently have tried to find experiences.