No, the purpose of the task was to do what He had requested.

He asked me to join a specific audio recording website and upload for Him an audio recording.

I joked something along the lines of "OMG That's the easiest task ever! I love you and I love talking, so this is perfect for me, I can easily come up with something that's sure to make you smile!"

He responded that He didn't want to smile, He wanted to be desperate for me by the time He was through listening.


I expressed my fear that I didn't think I could come up with anything I could possibly say that would make Him feel like that (this was me thinking out loud, NOT me expressing an unwillingness to perform the task.... trust me, I have been ordered to do MUCH more difficult things in the past and done them without hesitation).

So I tried the recording and I just didn't FEEL it. I didn't feel as though anything I was saying would give Him what He desired, and it felt so forced and fake. So I got the idea instead of doing just an audio recording, I would make Him a video! It wasn't anything sexual, it was just a video of me talking, telling Him how much I love Him and miss Him (we have been separated by way too many miles recently) and stuff like that.

I was SOOOO excited for Him to wake up and get it because He's always expressed pleasure in me taking initiative and going above and beyond. I wanted him to be surprised and excited.

He was not pleased that I did not follow the command He had given me. I was heartbroken. And I was hurt as well. I had been a bit vulnerable in the video and I felt like giving my all just wasn't good enough. So I regret my action, but I argued with Him and told Him that I felt He had been unfair with me.


It's all been downhill from there.