thank you, it has been hard on Him for so long with this bout. i many times can only help Him by reassuring Him that He isn't treating us all as badly as He feels He is. He is concerned because of the intensity of all of this on His body and psyche as well. i do believe that this has made all of us to be walking on egg shells as no one wants to make this harder on Him than it needs to be. it has made it also harder on O/our D/s relationship i think because He is so tense that perspective is hard to keep. For the most part i try and maintain as submissive a stance as i can and i believe He is maintaining as gentle as He can because it would be so easy for Him to go to far with regards to impact toys. i know that this is why i am questioning how to carry this out better, i don't want Him to feel my stress as He has enough.