Is it pride? I don't feel that it makes me something special or that is a competition of some kind. We change, we learn, but we still remain ourselves. I still have a sense of honor, pride, humiliation, embarrassment. I still struggle. But I still obey. Why? Because we have an enough sense of familiarity and trust for me to be sure it is not His intention to humiliate me. Some orders still make me cringe, not understanding why He gives them - but in doing them lies comprehension - the purpose of which is to explore, to liberate. He enjoys seeing His submissive doing His bidding. When He sees me try, when I complete it to His satisfaction, when He utters those two words, "Good girl," - it makes me feel warm, it makes me glow, it makes me grow as a person and it makes me feel good about myself. Is that pride, I don't know, but yes, I do feel it.