Haha! Our men truly did graduate with identical honours. Mine doesn’t use anal and oral as a punishment but it is all I get – and has been that way for the last ten years. I suppose giving up vaginal sex was my act of ultimate submission to him and perhaps, in some ways,(by being denied the ability to bear children) also my ultimate punishment. But my reward for this sacrifice is my dildo and my plug in vibrator – both of which are kept locked in his office. He likes to watch me use them and when he gifts me with an orgasm he insists on watching me reach it – and also insists on taking away my toys as soon as I have. The cruellest thing he can do is take them away after only one orgasm – I hate that but he likes to keep me keen and he knows that if I get too much pleasure, I become lazy and far less attentive to his needs.

He’s not cruel, he just knows how to work me well and sometimes he’ll even leave me with my giant dildo inserted – as long as I promise not to make myself cum. That is truly the most amazing high for me. I once spent 7 ½ hours with that wonderful well stuffed feeling – not able to sit – not able to walk properly, just waiting for him to come home and release me. Of course he insisted on me sucking him before he’d allow me my pleasure but when he eventually touched me I nearly hit the roof. It was the best climax I’d ever experienced and probably goes a long way to explain why I’m happy to live by his rules.

I’m a masochist and denial is a strangely addictive aphrodisiac for me. And pleasuring him, whilst going without myself, is something of a spiritual achievement. I’m not always good and sometimes I feel like tearing my hair out (why I started this thread) for the want of a good fuck but I would be lost without him – we all have to pay a price for our pleasure, don’t we?