i'm just stiitng here checking my fourms and thinking about stuff..i'm just thinking about how i can't wait to finally be with my Master for good. i'm just running my finger along the chain that i wear as my temporay collar and i'm just hoping that i will be good enough to be his slave i know that i am good enough to be his slave but i am having some little doubts about if i will make a good Mistress for him because when i domme him he wants me to be really mean to him but i just can't do it because i love him too much mabey if i didn't love him the way i do it would be easier for me but right now it just breaks my heart to even think about it.