SauvagePouline

So I went to the Dr. today, but I went to the wrong one. Despite my hopes, the hard painful lump/mass thing isn't reproductive tract related. So I have to go to the regular doctor. -cry-

It's almost definitely intestinal. I'm really worried cuz my mom has horrible horrible crohns and I DONT WANT THAT. Not only that, but it takes so long for them to diagnose anything down there, and then they don't do anything about it. If it had been reproductive there might've been surgery or something, but it would've just been done and over with.

On the plus side, with all this poking and proding, they caused the lump to be angry, and I realized it is the same pain that I get during sex sometimes. (i figured it was just from being to rough or deep too soon) And that sexual pain has been around for a year or so. Soooooo I guess this is not a new thing, just recently intensified. At least I know now why sex isn't as fun lately. (not that that helps since i have little hope of the dr helping and thus don't expect to get better)


if anyone is wondering why i don't post much lately, i'm sorry. i'm just sooooooo drained. I can't be bothered to do anything unless forced. I go to class, i take care of my animals, and i do chores. But... idk. I just wanna sleep. Wonder if this is a symptom?